Guess What??? I Have A Neck

Yes it's true.....it is not a rumor......Donna has a neck......I found it only recently......below my chin and above my shoulders....that thing that apparently holds my head in place......I also am feeling a hint of a collar bone....yes an honest to goodness collar bone. My face has become more oval or I guess less round.  I am enjoying seeing my toes and my ankles look like normal ankles. My waist is getting smaller (well not sure I should use the word smaller but not as big as it has been).  My pants are sliding up past my waist when I sit down because there is less to keep them in place and are sliding down when I stand up.  My bra slides up my back too because there are less rolls holding it down. Today, it was cold when I was leaving for my meeting,  I ended up wearing my weigh-in shorts under my jeans....something I would not have been able to do before. The ass and thighs have not gotten the message yet.....but they will eventually.

Last week, I ate only veggies for dinner a few nights.  In fact last week, I ate more veggies then I can ever remember eating. I did have one night during the week when I had to fight the urge to dive into the Valentines Day cookies Jenn was making for work.  The smell of them was nothing but torture!!!! On Saturday, I spent a lot of the day very busy.  I only ate a small amount of food.  I woke up at 3:00 AM and was hungry,  I had to convince myself to stay under my covers and not go out and raid the refrigerator.  I am not normally a middle of the night eater but last night I could hear the food calling me.  I finally fell back to sleep without entering the kitchen.  I woke up hungry but was going to my weigh-in and didn't want to chance messing with my weight.  I was down a little.....enough to hit the 45 pound mark. I was hoping for more but am OK with the small loss because I messed up and a couple of times during the week ate LESS than half of what I was allowed also I had a few weeks of big losses and that can't continue week after week.  Bottom line is I was focused on the 45 pound goal which I hit.

Jenn had me hold a 17 pound bag of dog food and said "picture carrying almost 3 of these around all day".  I had a hard time carrying just the one !!! So I have taken 180 pounds of pressure off my poor knees, I have lost 180 stick of butter or 180 quarter pounders.

Today, when I got another 5 pound star I heard someone say "She is on fire."  That was nice to hear.  And I have to be careful now......people are starting to notice the weight coming off .  This is where I have had an issue before and start to get cocky and not play by the rules.  Not this time though......next stop 50 pounds and another WW charm for my key chain .......I am thinking maybe a Pandora bracelet for all my WW charms might be in my future.

Yes, I still have a long long long way to go but as of now I can stop thinking "we need to get table because I was afraid of fitting in a booth" or "am I going to break that chair?" .....yesterday I sat in a seat at a play and had plenty of room to play with......these may not be big issues for normal people but for me they are all steps in the right direction.  My knees will never be 100% but they can be less painful.

When I was at the play yesterday I had to stand up to let people pass.......I had to keep pulling my pants up....it was pretty funny that I had to grab them quickly before anyone saw my underwear.....LOL....not such a bad problem to have is it?

So on to the next 5 pounds.....the big 50......I am hoping to hit that within a few weeks......maybe then I will take another FB profile picture.....I updated my old one last week but have lost almost 30 pounds since that picture was taken.....

OK time to go cook the brussel sprouts, cabbage and make some more WW Banana Chocolate Chip muffins and start another week in the battle to become a healthier me........

I Can See Clearly Now.......

I got into the shower this morning and things looked great.....by things I mean the shower curtain liner, the walls, shampoo, etc. I was confused.....why did things look crystal clear?????

Yes, you guessed it.....I got in the shower with my glasses on.....ugh.

What happened to my eyesight?  Did it start going downhill around the same time my boobs started heading south??

I was driving somewhere the other day and the sunlight hit my legs.  And what did it see?  Ugh.....I had missed a section while shaving my legs.  Why did I miss a spot?  Because I can't see in the shower.

I quickly I rectified the situation but lord knows what else I missed and who might have seen me with that unsightly patch.

Note to self: inspect legs carefully before exiting the shower......double check the pits too!!

I used to get up in the morning take a shower thrown on a little make up blow dry my hair and off I would go.

Now, I grab for my glasses.  I line up the variety of vitamins and pills I need to take.  I shower.  I put on a lot of make-up. Do you have any idea how hard it is to put on make-up when you can't see it because you can't wear your glasses?   I take a lot of time fixing my hair (oh and I guess they are right that hair runs in cycles because mine is now thicker than it has been in years).  What I used to do in minutes now takes an hour.  And you have seen the finished product......so are you now scratching you head saying......"and that is what she looks like after all that work???"

It figures that as I start to get healthy other  parts of me I wasn't worried about are falling apart.

This morning at my weekly meeting, my leader was asking members about how much weight they had lost.  She then mentioned "the new and improved Donna who was scaring everyone in the class".  We all laughed and I said "I am scaring my family too!!!!"

I am finally feeling the weight coming off.  I feel like I am in a zone and am so afraid I will fall out of it. As of today, I have lost 44.4 pounds.  I am hoping next week to lose that .6 pounds to get to 45 pounds.  Then I can focus on 50. I am moving around a lot easier than before for me that is but still have a long long way to go.

The hard part is when you are as heavy as I have been.......it takes time for people to notice.....not that is should matter to anyone but me but I am shallow and don't mind people asking me if I have lost weight.  Maybe by the time I take off another 40-50 it will be more evident.    

The reflection in the mirror is improving.....when I have my glasses on that is.........

Lose Weight Gain Confidence.......Another Stand Up Comedy Performance...

I don't know what is happening to me.......

In just about every situation I can think of I hate being the center of attention..... I sit in the back row......I gravitate to people I know......I try not to stand out.......

But then I go to my Weight Watcher meeting and this other person I do not know shows up......it is me but willing to get up in front of the class and carry on.......is this the real Donna????

This morning I arrived at my meeting at 9:02.....I weighed in and had another good loss.....I was able to earn another 5 pound star. I was afraid I would miss getting my new star.......

So I ran into the meeting room yelling "I need to get my star!!! I need to get my star!!!"  I ran right up to the front of the room......who the hell do I think I am???

Everyone in the class laughed......I then did my stand up about how great I felt, apologizing for not wearing my make-up since I woke up late and on and on........the people in my class kept laughing, clapping and cheering.  I think I have lost my mind with my weight.

Lord help my class when I hit goal......I may never leave the front of the room.......LOL.

My self-confidence is soaring up while the scale is going down.

41.8 pounds gone.......while sticking to focusing on 5 pounds at a time next up 45 pounds and then I get my 50 pound charm.  They might want to duct tape my mouth.....not to keep food from going in but to keep me quiet......if I show up with my own microphone my class should run for the nearest exit.......

Most of you would not recognize the Donna who shows up on Sunday morning at my meeting.......maybe I can have someone video tape the lunatic who appears pretending to be me and you can see what I mean......

Although most people know I have a great sense of humor but on Sunday I act like I am at the comedy store.......

I am having fun.......although I have a long long way to go.....this is the lightest I have been in 9 years......anything before that was a blur as I don't know how I got from "normal" 30 years ago to the person  who weighed 53 pounds more than I do now at my all time high ( I had dropped a few pounds on my own before starting WW).......

This week I gave up soda and drank more water.....which is great.......except........I was peeing every friggin hour.....I was told my body would adjust to all the water I am consuming......I sure hope it does soon.......I need to sleep and not be up half the night........

Picture a slightly smaller Donna, tired from lack of sleep, water logged and thinking she is the funniest person she has ever met........note I said she has ever met.......everyone else might be thinking.....hhhhhmmmmm......

Goodbye soda.......goodbye cheese......I will miss you.......but I am liking me more which makes it all worth while.......