I will start by admitting yes it's true but I am a FANILOW!!! LOL
A few months ago a friend asked me, "if you could see anyone in concert who would it be?" I asked, "dead or alive?" My girlfriend started to laugh and said "alive you ass!!" And I said Barry Manilow. Well lo and behold after checking the concert schedule Barry was going to be in Charlotte on June 6th.
Last night, I went to see Barry with Jenn and my sister, Cheryl. Jenn was a good sport and went with us although she was probably among the youngest people at the show. It seemed funny to be sitting in an audience of so many people around my age.
The show was great!! With the exception of two songs, I knew every one he sang. I had been playing
his songs on my IPOD on the way to Charlotte and there is one song I told Jenn I liked but he probably wouldn't sing. It is called "All The Time". It is a song about wanting to fit in but not fitting in ......kind of the way I have felt and then realizing that there are others that feel that way too. Well, he sang it and it was great.
All I kept thinking as I danced in the aisle was "I feel alive!!!"
A year ago, yes there were some good moments but I felt like just a shell of myself. Last night, was just another time since I started this journey where I couldn't stop smiling and laughing and clapping and dancing.
When I went to my WW meeting today, I was down again at the scale. But the fun part was my WW friends asking about the show and during our meeting I told the group the "I feel alive" story and I waved my glow stick from the concert which made everyone laugh.
While we were walking into the concert, I had to stop. Jenn and Cheryl asked if I was OK. I told the yes but I had to stop to pull my jeans up (notice a recurring them here about pants falling down , see one of my previous entries). I was able to sit in my seat at the concert very nicely (something most of you never think about right?). And for a few hours I listened to songs I love and some brought back some great memories.
Well enough about Barry and me.....
The other good things about the week were......
My two counterparts from work and I got into one of the most hysterical text conversations I have ever been in.........last night my sister, Jenn and an old friend (boy) got into a facebook conversation that had Cheryl and I in tears laughing. After a few minutes of craziness.....my sister said "OMG will anyone from you job see this??" LOL I told her not to worry it was fine. ( I can see you all now going to my FB page to try and find the conversation....LOL). Don't worry my two work com padres.....our text conversation will not be shared.......no, it was not work related it was just total insanity!!!
Someone in the office stopped by to tell me she had noticed I was losing weight but the funny part was what she said. "I notice you are wearing sandals not Crocs." Funny the little things people notice......
While I am still healing physically from the years of wear and tear I have allowed my body to go through and still healing emotionally from they way I have thought of myself or allowed other the verbally abuse me........I know I have said it before......the old Donna is so coming back so watch out world and as my confidence returns, my sense of humor takes on new heights and the my dreams become realities......
I do love the beginning of Chapter 3 of my life.......who knew?? I didn't really think it would ever get better and now barely 8 1/2 months into the transformation and I feel surprised.........amazed........blessed.........happy...,,..grateful..............ALIVE..........but I haven't gotten this far without my support group........family and friends........my Sunday morning WW buddies who have so enriched and added to my life.......and of course there is always Jenn......encouraging me........monitoring me......and reminding me of how far I have come.........and I always need to remember she is the person who will be picking out my nursing home.
So here's to another new event for my books of lists........finally seeing Barry.
Here are two short clips from last night.....one is a corny song but says how I feel about all of you and the other is from the end of the show and is how I am feeling on the inside (hint ...wait for the streamers.....)
See you next week......
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