Tuesday, April 6, 2010
The TRAINER....
I was told I would love my trainer, Carol. The only trainers I had seen before were Bob and Jillian on the Biggest Loser. So I asked ...."Will she make me cry?" Guess what she has made me cry....not during the workout but after when I get in the car and realize the things she has gotten me to do. Most of my friends know I am not the most coordinated person going.....I broke my arm and caused permanent nerve damage to my knee when I tripped over a basketball. One of my big fears is falling. What was the first thing we tackled....balance. OK how did Carol know?? She explained about core muscles and how important balance is. Instead of looking down, I need to pretend there is a string in my chest up to the ceiling. I have to stand on one foot and stay balanced.....that shouldn't be hard right?? Oh yes it is...I wobble and shake and finally can stand straight up for a few seconds. The I have to switch to the other leg. Next we go to the racquetball court, I have to walk BACKWARDS...carrying weights in each hand. Next the basketball court walking sideways carrying weights and lifting them over my head. I didn't fall....wow !! Within a few weeks, Carol has me out on the main gym floor just like everyone else. I am not as self-conscious as I thought I would be. I am also not taking as many breaks as I did when we first started meeting. One genetic flaw that has shown up... Carol has to remind Jenn and me to look up towards the ceiling and BREATHE.....
Friday, April 2, 2010
More gym time
Week of Jan. 17th....
Tuesday in the pool.
Thursday in the Ladies gym using the machines.
Saturday was my 2nd session with John....
more machines, weights and me feeling like I am 90 years old.
We end the session by John introducing me to the elliptical trainer. He said "do about 10 minutes on here and you are done for the day".
I lasted 1 minute and had to get off. My heart was pounding and I was embarrassed. Today, the machine beat me but I will be back.....
Tuesday in the pool.
Thursday in the Ladies gym using the machines.
Saturday was my 2nd session with John....
more machines, weights and me feeling like I am 90 years old.
We end the session by John introducing me to the elliptical trainer. He said "do about 10 minutes on here and you are done for the day".
I lasted 1 minute and had to get off. My heart was pounding and I was embarrassed. Today, the machine beat me but I will be back.....
Free Training Session #1
Jan 16th- I get 2 free training sessions besides the weekly meetings starting next week with Carol..I tell John I am sorry he ended up with the short end of the stick and is stuck with me while another trainer has Jenn. He just laughs.
OK you want me to hold onto that bar and do what??? My knees would have choked me if they were my hands. We did some machines, some weights and I am so nervous that I could either cry from embarrassment or pass out from sweating....
Is it time to leave yet??? Nope.
Keep working....keep moving.
Funny no one is staring or pointing at me (at least not that I can see).
I survived day 1......
OK you want me to hold onto that bar and do what??? My knees would have choked me if they were my hands. We did some machines, some weights and I am so nervous that I could either cry from embarrassment or pass out from sweating....
Is it time to leave yet??? Nope.
Keep working....keep moving.
Funny no one is staring or pointing at me (at least not that I can see).
I survived day 1......
The G Word
Jan. 12, 2010- I walked into Golds Gym for the 1st time. Jenn and I had talked about it for months while the construction was going on...now it was time for action. We did the tour of the gym. I was a nervous wreck. Then I had to make a list of 10 reasons to join the gym...this was harder than you think.
1. Better health
2. Self esteem
3. Lose weight
4. Put myself 1st
5. Not stand out in a crowd anymore
6. Live longer
7-10 are more painful...maybe someday I will share those.
The next thing was checking my body fat...ok how much humiliation can a person take in a day. I told John, the Gold's employee assigned to me for the moment, I didn't want to look at the number. He laughed and said "I am going to tell it to you anyway." It was not a pretty number (which I won't share with anyone right now). Then horror of horrors.....getting on a scale right there where everyone could see me....ok I need a strong drink !!!!
After all of that and me getting ready to cry.....now we talked about a trainer. I wasn't ready to commit to that but Jenn encouraged me and said she thought it would be good for me. Sure why not....it's only money....and it's for me....
Signed up to meet with a trainer once a week. Jenn did too !!! Her name is Carol. Good Luck Carol....I don't know if you are ready for the likes of me.....
1. Better health
2. Self esteem
3. Lose weight
4. Put myself 1st
5. Not stand out in a crowd anymore
6. Live longer
7-10 are more painful...maybe someday I will share those.
The next thing was checking my body fat...ok how much humiliation can a person take in a day. I told John, the Gold's employee assigned to me for the moment, I didn't want to look at the number. He laughed and said "I am going to tell it to you anyway." It was not a pretty number (which I won't share with anyone right now). Then horror of horrors.....getting on a scale right there where everyone could see me....ok I need a strong drink !!!!
After all of that and me getting ready to cry.....now we talked about a trainer. I wasn't ready to commit to that but Jenn encouraged me and said she thought it would be good for me. Sure why not....it's only money....and it's for me....
Signed up to meet with a trainer once a week. Jenn did too !!! Her name is Carol. Good Luck Carol....I don't know if you are ready for the likes of me.....
You have to start some where.......
Saturday morning....January 2nd..standing on line at Weight Watchers....paid in advance for meetings through the end of April. The weight isn't horrible....didn't gain over the holidays. Reminded by some in my life about how many times I have tried this and failed hangs in the back of my head. My attitude is 5 pounds at a time and as long as I weigh less at the end of the year than I did at the beginning I will be happy.....ok to be honest if I could be down 50 lbs by December would be great....we will just have to see....next the gym...
New Year's Eve 2009
Year End Review of 2009-
Spent 1st half of year worrying about whether or not I would have a job when the year ended. By December it was safe to say I would have a job.
Jenn graduated with her Master's Degree.
Mom was diagnosed with cancer in July. 2 Surgeries and chemo....uugghh !!!!
September- (Labor Day)- Bob diagnosed with cancer.
Feeling the stress of being so far from Mom, doctors bill rolling in and rolling in and rolling in...
Watching Bob travel to Atlanta for a few days of baseball and 2 trips to NY for Thanksgiving and Christmas while I sit here in Columbia and finance these travels...OK who's the dope here??
Well 2010 is going to be different.....lots of changes and lots to think about....
2010 is time for Donna to put herself front and center....no more taking a back seat to anyone.....
Living with someone who doesn't remember or acknowledge your birthday, didn't even think to get you a Christmas present and only thinks of himself makes you start to think "what about me?".......
Good bye to 2009....Hello 2010.....the year about ME....
Spent 1st half of year worrying about whether or not I would have a job when the year ended. By December it was safe to say I would have a job.
Jenn graduated with her Master's Degree.
Mom was diagnosed with cancer in July. 2 Surgeries and chemo....uugghh !!!!
September- (Labor Day)- Bob diagnosed with cancer.
Feeling the stress of being so far from Mom, doctors bill rolling in and rolling in and rolling in...
Watching Bob travel to Atlanta for a few days of baseball and 2 trips to NY for Thanksgiving and Christmas while I sit here in Columbia and finance these travels...OK who's the dope here??
Well 2010 is going to be different.....lots of changes and lots to think about....
2010 is time for Donna to put herself front and center....no more taking a back seat to anyone.....
Living with someone who doesn't remember or acknowledge your birthday, didn't even think to get you a Christmas present and only thinks of himself makes you start to think "what about me?".......
Good bye to 2009....Hello 2010.....the year about ME....
Christmas Day 2009
Although it is now Easter week-end 2010 and I am writing about Christmas in retrospect, the memories of that day over 3 months ago is as vivid as if it was yesterday. I have been putting off writing about Christmas because the words and feelings are so strong and in some cases painful.
I drove Jenn to work Christmas morning. It was raining hard and I took my time driving home. Driving by houses knowing inside were families celebrating the holiday made coming back into the house harder. I took the dog for a walk. He was not happy to be out in the chilly rain and kept looking at me like why are you doing this to me? It was the first Christmas morning I had ever spent alone.....what to do....what to do....
OK I will make the Stromboli we were bringing to a friends house later in the day...into the oven it went...so now it's 8:30....what do I do next.....
OK I will make the antipasto for our friends house....now it's 9:00....
Take the dog for another walk.....9:15
Get on the computer and send holiday greetings....9:30
9:45 1st phone call of the day....Bob calling to say what a wonderful time he is having with his family...wants to know what we are doing....what are we doing?? The same thing I told you we would be doing....Jenn's working and I am sitting here by myself looking at the tree Jenn and I decorated and listening to the rain on the roof.....what did he think we were doing....conversation 90 seconds....
10:00 decided to watch "A Christmas Story" from start to finish...that will kill some time...
12:00 showered, dressed and put gifts on the table for our friends house....
12:45 Jenn called she was getting off at 1:00....drove like a bat out of hell to get her at work
Then the day seemed to move faster...we went to our friends house for dinner...exchanged gifts and finally laugh....
We didn't get home too late and Jenn and I opened the gifts we had bought for each other. Watched a Christmas movie and drifted off to sleep......
Holiday over.......
I drove Jenn to work Christmas morning. It was raining hard and I took my time driving home. Driving by houses knowing inside were families celebrating the holiday made coming back into the house harder. I took the dog for a walk. He was not happy to be out in the chilly rain and kept looking at me like why are you doing this to me? It was the first Christmas morning I had ever spent alone.....what to do....what to do....
OK I will make the Stromboli we were bringing to a friends house later in the day...into the oven it went...so now it's 8:30....what do I do next.....
OK I will make the antipasto for our friends house....now it's 9:00....
Take the dog for another walk.....9:15
Get on the computer and send holiday greetings....9:30
9:45 1st phone call of the day....Bob calling to say what a wonderful time he is having with his family...wants to know what we are doing....what are we doing?? The same thing I told you we would be doing....Jenn's working and I am sitting here by myself looking at the tree Jenn and I decorated and listening to the rain on the roof.....what did he think we were doing....conversation 90 seconds....
10:00 decided to watch "A Christmas Story" from start to finish...that will kill some time...
12:00 showered, dressed and put gifts on the table for our friends house....
12:45 Jenn called she was getting off at 1:00....drove like a bat out of hell to get her at work
Then the day seemed to move faster...we went to our friends house for dinner...exchanged gifts and finally laugh....
We didn't get home too late and Jenn and I opened the gifts we had bought for each other. Watched a Christmas movie and drifted off to sleep......
Holiday over.......
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