I had trouble sleeping last night. All I could think about was I going to make it to the big 5-0 finally?? When I was getting ready for my WW meeting it was all I could think about. On the ride to the meeting I kept thinking "please let me hit 50 down" then all of a sudden I thought "what if I am up at the scale??" I hadn't thought of that during the week. So then I started praying.......yes, praying.....that I wasn't up at the scale. Then I started to rationalize....."OK what if it am not up on the scale. Is that OK?" Then I thought "but OMG I want to hit the 50 pounds so bad and I have been hitting some losses but not enough to push me over the top". And so it went all the way to my meeting......
I walked in and took off my jeans (don't worry I had my weigh in shorts on underneath them). I got on the scale and the lady who weighs us in said "Down 1.6." I admit it I screamed "that's over 50!!!!!" My leader came over and hugged me and I told her I was not getting off the scale for the next week!!! I got hugs from my WW Sunday morning buddies too. It was like some kind of high.....so hard to describe.
Now in 5 pound increments I can look toward my next goal 75 pounds. But first I have to hit 55, then 60 and on and on.......
I also jogged for 1 1/2 hours in the pool yesterday and another hour today. Jenn and I did some lawn mowing......yes, Jenn did the majority but I did about 15 minutes worth which is more than I could have done a year ago. If it wasn't for the fumes from the mower I could probably have gone longer but my asthma starts to kick in so I know when to quit. The mobility part is really changing which is great. I still hate walking for exercise but as one of my WW buddies said this morning "you have to find the activity (aka exercise in WW lingo) that you love and you will stick with it". Mine is jogging in the pool. I love it and get in a zone and shut everything and everyone else out. I try not to sing out loud with my waterproof IPOD but there are times people look at me strangely which tells me I am singing out loud.
I also looked at my shopping cart last night. Boy has it changed......loaded with veggies, fruit, protein, yogurt and so many healthier options. I came home prepared all the veggies, shrimp and WW muffins for the week. I have found that is the key....being prepared and tracking everything I put in my mouth.
Jenn, my own WW monitor has dropped 16 pounds too while helping me. She looks amazing. I on the other hand am a work in progress. I heard a story once and it most likely is a story but something I can relate to......Michelangelo was carving something out of a piece of marble. A person asked how he had created such a beautiful work of sculpting.....he supposedly said "it was there all the time.. I just removed the excess marble". Well, that is what I am doing.....removing the excess me and the part that is left was there all along just hidden........
Jenn keeps telling me she is going to make me walk around the supermarket carrying 50 pounds of something. I told her I couldn't carry that much weight. She looked at me as if to say that is what you have been doing all this time........
At least for today I am content with what the scale told me (and no I did not eat anything to celebrate). But tomorrow, I begin again to focus on my next goal.
If anyone had told me this time last year or even last summer I would achieved this much I wouldn't have believed it. But here I am.....full steam ahead and on we go......
Oh just one more thing.....there is a lot of bad and good to be said about Facebook.....but today I had over 100 likes and almost 50 comments on my status about hitting the 50 pounds loss on my personal page and on the private WW page of which I am a member I had almost 250 likes.....all I can say is WOW!!!!
Thank you for your support and positive feedback on FB and about this blog.......it means more to me than I can ever say.......big HUGS to all of you!!!!
See you next week......
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Public Speaking 101 and the Elusive 50......
Today was my day to talk in front of my Weight Watcher class. I had thought about what I was going to say during the week......
And then suddenly it was Sunday morning. There are some in my family that are great at speaking extemporaneously.....I am not in that group. The first two ladies spoke, one had notes on paper and drew a chart on the board, the other had notes in a notebook and her wedding album. I showed up with notes on the back of a old check book register. I also brought along a book of pictures from my family reunion 2 years ago so people could really see the difference.
I started out by admitting to the group that I could not blame my weight issues on baby weight since my baby was 30 years old. I told them how my well meaning Mom had given a very good friend a note telling him to suggest I go for gastric bypass surgery. The conversation he had with me on that topic was uncomfortable and painful. I can't believe I am crying as I write this......and that event took place in 2003. Besides the pain, I was so terribly embarrassed that someone I had known at that time for 30 years was stuck discussing my weight with me. I have had other family members have "the talk" with me. I have also been called some very ugly names.
As I told the group this morning, none of that got me to focus on me. I am now 60 pounds lighter (not sure if lighter is the right word) then I was on the day of that lousy conversation. I talked about how many times I had been a WW member as our leader nodded her head. She has seen me like a yo yo join and quit and join and quit. Even she has said to me more than once since I have been back at WW "Donna, this is your time!!"
I continued on to tell them about the book I am writing tentatively called "The List". I told them how I was trying new things such as getting a third hole in my ears and wanting to get a tattoo (I haven't done it yet). And then I told them how all of a sudden it was the right time for me....yes for me not for anyone else. I talked about how hard it is to have to think about food all the time to be successful. I showed them my picture from the family reunion and said I was NEVER going back to being that person. One of the ladies said, "You do have a neck now." referencing one of my blog entries from a few weeks ago. I know I went on for a few minutes some was laughter and some was painful and embarrassing but I said it all.
I told the group the best thing I have found recently (besides clothes getting very loose) is I have gotten my laugh back. I find I laugh an awful lot and it feels good to just be silly or have something funny happen and not be able to contain the laughter or to laugh until I cry....happy tears.
I was glad I took the opportunity to speak since that was one of my goals on my list. Given the opportunity I will not pass up speaking before a group at work or anywhere else. (NOTE to my boss......please be kind to me when you find the right speaking engagement for me...LOL)
The ladies in my class are doing the Heart and Sole 3 or 5 mile walk or race. I thought about it long and hard and decided I was not going to stress out over it. I told them I would do 5 miles of jogging in the pool. I even said I would have my daughter take a picture of me in the pool.....hey what is there to worry about most of me will be covered by the water. They thought that was a great idea. They told me I need to do it the day before their race so I can see them at the starting line and when they finish and be in the group photo. How wonderful and supportive is that?.... from a great group of ladies!!!!! Oh and not to leave out the men.....LOL.....one of the men in my class offered to go get a tattoo with me.....we will have to see on that one....stay tuned.
Lastly, as you can tell from the title of this entry I did not hit the big 5-0 this week. I am so very close and once again hope that next week will be my time. But the bottom line is I will hit it damn it!!! I am still shooting to be down 75 pounds by my family reunion in July. If I make it great....if I don't it doesn't mean I am a failure....it just means it might take a little longer.
I told them in the meeting this morning I will not hit my goal this year (it is just too big a number to get to in 2015) but I will hit it next year!!
So the morning had it's laughs and tears and nervous moments and commitment to succeed.......a full range of emotions that I am feeling as I lose weight and find me......
See you next week.....
And then suddenly it was Sunday morning. There are some in my family that are great at speaking extemporaneously.....I am not in that group. The first two ladies spoke, one had notes on paper and drew a chart on the board, the other had notes in a notebook and her wedding album. I showed up with notes on the back of a old check book register. I also brought along a book of pictures from my family reunion 2 years ago so people could really see the difference.
I started out by admitting to the group that I could not blame my weight issues on baby weight since my baby was 30 years old. I told them how my well meaning Mom had given a very good friend a note telling him to suggest I go for gastric bypass surgery. The conversation he had with me on that topic was uncomfortable and painful. I can't believe I am crying as I write this......and that event took place in 2003. Besides the pain, I was so terribly embarrassed that someone I had known at that time for 30 years was stuck discussing my weight with me. I have had other family members have "the talk" with me. I have also been called some very ugly names.
As I told the group this morning, none of that got me to focus on me. I am now 60 pounds lighter (not sure if lighter is the right word) then I was on the day of that lousy conversation. I talked about how many times I had been a WW member as our leader nodded her head. She has seen me like a yo yo join and quit and join and quit. Even she has said to me more than once since I have been back at WW "Donna, this is your time!!"
I continued on to tell them about the book I am writing tentatively called "The List". I told them how I was trying new things such as getting a third hole in my ears and wanting to get a tattoo (I haven't done it yet). And then I told them how all of a sudden it was the right time for me....yes for me not for anyone else. I talked about how hard it is to have to think about food all the time to be successful. I showed them my picture from the family reunion and said I was NEVER going back to being that person. One of the ladies said, "You do have a neck now." referencing one of my blog entries from a few weeks ago. I know I went on for a few minutes some was laughter and some was painful and embarrassing but I said it all.
I told the group the best thing I have found recently (besides clothes getting very loose) is I have gotten my laugh back. I find I laugh an awful lot and it feels good to just be silly or have something funny happen and not be able to contain the laughter or to laugh until I cry....happy tears.
I was glad I took the opportunity to speak since that was one of my goals on my list. Given the opportunity I will not pass up speaking before a group at work or anywhere else. (NOTE to my boss......please be kind to me when you find the right speaking engagement for me...LOL)
The ladies in my class are doing the Heart and Sole 3 or 5 mile walk or race. I thought about it long and hard and decided I was not going to stress out over it. I told them I would do 5 miles of jogging in the pool. I even said I would have my daughter take a picture of me in the pool.....hey what is there to worry about most of me will be covered by the water. They thought that was a great idea. They told me I need to do it the day before their race so I can see them at the starting line and when they finish and be in the group photo. How wonderful and supportive is that?.... from a great group of ladies!!!!! Oh and not to leave out the men.....LOL.....one of the men in my class offered to go get a tattoo with me.....we will have to see on that one....stay tuned.
Lastly, as you can tell from the title of this entry I did not hit the big 5-0 this week. I am so very close and once again hope that next week will be my time. But the bottom line is I will hit it damn it!!! I am still shooting to be down 75 pounds by my family reunion in July. If I make it great....if I don't it doesn't mean I am a failure....it just means it might take a little longer.
I told them in the meeting this morning I will not hit my goal this year (it is just too big a number to get to in 2015) but I will hit it next year!!
So the morning had it's laughs and tears and nervous moments and commitment to succeed.......a full range of emotions that I am feeling as I lose weight and find me......
See you next week.....
Sunday, March 15, 2015
My Head Is Spinning In A Million Directions
Sometimes it's more about the NSV's......Non-Scale Victories in Weight Watcher Lingo.....
I went to a business lunch this week and when I walk in I faced the dreaded folding chairs. I used to worry about whether or not it would collapse underneath me but this time I didn't worry about that.....as much.....LOL. I did pass up the lunch part though because it was mostly southern barbecue and I just couldn't think of a way to figure out what the points value was for the mac and cheese or pulled pork so it was easier for me to sit there and be social and then eat the lunch I had brought to work when I got back to my desk.
I went to the eye Dr this week. OK here I go with sharing more than I should. For years I have gone for my eye exams and not been able to sit back in the chair comfortably. Why?? My big butt.....I would sit back as far as I could but it was never comfortable and I could never put my feet on the place where I was supposed to rest my feet.....I couldn't put my feet there because I was sitting to far forward. This week.....I planted my ass in the back of the chair (yes there was more room and less ass) and my feet rested right on the little ledge of the chair where they were supposed to.....a small victory.
The next day I went for my mammo........I was able to stand the whole time it took to complete and in between pictures I held onto the machine and did leg lifts and swings. The girls were flat like pancakes (why of why isn't there a real equivalent of this fun event for men????). I think they have gone down a little in size too.......
I went to my meeting this morning and was down some but did not hit the big 5-0......there are 3 of us that are all close to hitting 50 pounds down. It would be amazing if we all hit it next week. I am giving it my best effort to get there.....I wouldn't mind a few prayers too that might help push me over the top.......
The ladies in my class are signing up for a 3 and/or 5 mile walk/run. I want so bad to do it but as many of you know I have some issues.....my knees are shot......my asthma does make it difficult.......graceful is NOT my middle name and I am just plain old scared of failure......the ladies have offered me so many options such as walking together.......doing a pre-walk practice.....giving me a pass for this year as long as I am ready to do it next year.......I am praying about it as far as what to do.......I guess even thinking about doing it is a step in the right direction. And do you know why I want to do it??? To say that I can and to get a medal at the end of it.....LOL.....I have never gotten a medal or a ribbon for anything athletic in my life.......something to think about.......
I dared to look at myself sideways in a mirror today and guess what.......my ass was not going out nine miles behind me (no pun intended)......oh it is still there but there really is less of it. I am also way more mobile then I was before. I am up and in the kitchen all the time or going to my bedroom to get things I need......this may not sound important but I used to ask Jenn to get things for me instead of getting them myself. Now you find me standing at the sink washing dishes......helping to carry in the groceries........not dreading the walk to the ladies room at work. I still have a long, long way to go but even I can now start to see a difference.......
I just finished getting my veggies ready for the week. I cut up the tomato's and cukes for salad. I have a bag of celery cut up and ready to snack on. I just took brussels sprouts, cabbage and a dish with asparagus, zucchini, mushrooms and onions out of the oven. They are all packed away and ready to go at a moments notice......
See what I mean about my mind going in a million directions??? Enough rambling for now........see you next week.....
I went to a business lunch this week and when I walk in I faced the dreaded folding chairs. I used to worry about whether or not it would collapse underneath me but this time I didn't worry about that.....as much.....LOL. I did pass up the lunch part though because it was mostly southern barbecue and I just couldn't think of a way to figure out what the points value was for the mac and cheese or pulled pork so it was easier for me to sit there and be social and then eat the lunch I had brought to work when I got back to my desk.
I went to the eye Dr this week. OK here I go with sharing more than I should. For years I have gone for my eye exams and not been able to sit back in the chair comfortably. Why?? My big butt.....I would sit back as far as I could but it was never comfortable and I could never put my feet on the place where I was supposed to rest my feet.....I couldn't put my feet there because I was sitting to far forward. This week.....I planted my ass in the back of the chair (yes there was more room and less ass) and my feet rested right on the little ledge of the chair where they were supposed to.....a small victory.
The next day I went for my mammo........I was able to stand the whole time it took to complete and in between pictures I held onto the machine and did leg lifts and swings. The girls were flat like pancakes (why of why isn't there a real equivalent of this fun event for men????). I think they have gone down a little in size too.......
I went to my meeting this morning and was down some but did not hit the big 5-0......there are 3 of us that are all close to hitting 50 pounds down. It would be amazing if we all hit it next week. I am giving it my best effort to get there.....I wouldn't mind a few prayers too that might help push me over the top.......
The ladies in my class are signing up for a 3 and/or 5 mile walk/run. I want so bad to do it but as many of you know I have some issues.....my knees are shot......my asthma does make it difficult.......graceful is NOT my middle name and I am just plain old scared of failure......the ladies have offered me so many options such as walking together.......doing a pre-walk practice.....giving me a pass for this year as long as I am ready to do it next year.......I am praying about it as far as what to do.......I guess even thinking about doing it is a step in the right direction. And do you know why I want to do it??? To say that I can and to get a medal at the end of it.....LOL.....I have never gotten a medal or a ribbon for anything athletic in my life.......something to think about.......
I dared to look at myself sideways in a mirror today and guess what.......my ass was not going out nine miles behind me (no pun intended)......oh it is still there but there really is less of it. I am also way more mobile then I was before. I am up and in the kitchen all the time or going to my bedroom to get things I need......this may not sound important but I used to ask Jenn to get things for me instead of getting them myself. Now you find me standing at the sink washing dishes......helping to carry in the groceries........not dreading the walk to the ladies room at work. I still have a long, long way to go but even I can now start to see a difference.......
I just finished getting my veggies ready for the week. I cut up the tomato's and cukes for salad. I have a bag of celery cut up and ready to snack on. I just took brussels sprouts, cabbage and a dish with asparagus, zucchini, mushrooms and onions out of the oven. They are all packed away and ready to go at a moments notice......
See what I mean about my mind going in a million directions??? Enough rambling for now........see you next week.....
Sunday, March 8, 2015
And Now I Have A Collar Bone.....
The discovery of my collar bone this week was very exciting!!!
I even can feel the hint of a rib ......of course I have to be laying down to feel it......but it is there along with according to rumor several other ribs.
So I have a neck....smaller ankles......ring almost falling off my fingers....a watch band that will no longer stay in place.....shirts that are becoming loose and the shoulders of those shirts are now falling off my shoulders. Getting my bathing suit over my ass is not quite as much a struggle......oh and the girls are not taking up as much space as before......my stomach is getting flatter.....or less distended I guess.......and I can now clearly see my C-section scar which runs from just below my belly button to about you know where......guess what.....it's crooked........my stomach looks like two pieces of pizza dough with a line down the middle........how attractive is that???? But due to the weight loss it is more pronounced.......not that anyone but me.... oh and my Dr. would see it and for my Dr's. benefit he would only have to see it once a year .......not a pretty sight.......my neck (as you remember I just discovered recently).....now has some loose skin......I hope I do not end up with a turkey neck.......
Who the hell am I to complain???? I am losing weight which for my health is the best choice I could make.
And I still have an incredibly long way to go.......and I didn't hit 50 this week-end. Maybe next week or the week after......but you will notice I am NOT giving up.
I am giving a 1 minute speech at a meeting in 2 weeks about a time when I blew it or struggled and how I got through the rough time. How do I share over 50 years of failures into 1 minute......and try to keep it light and humorous????? Our meeting leader asked for 2 or 3 volunteers and I kind of put my hand up like you would at an auction if you were not totally sure you wanted to make the bid.....LOL.....but my leader saw it and pointed to me and acknowledged my hand raised at half-mast...LOL.
I am so fighting to hit 75 pounds gone by July and below my drivers license weight by the fall......realistic goals but many days I can't think about those numbers......they are too overwhelming!!!!
By the time I hit 75 pounds gone ....I will need to buy some new slacks.....there will really be no option......I am not even sure what size I will fit into then??? I am sure it will be smaller and then hopefully as I continue along I will need to replace those clothes with another set of smaller ones.
I saw my WW lifetime goal on my weigh in card today.......I really don't think I can reach that number......I haven't weighed that little since 1973.......LOL.......I guess it is sad that I lost so much time ignoring my weight and now that I am looking to the end of my 50's I finally decide to get healthy??? What a jackass not taking the time before......
Well as I continue to discover body parts, I will be more than happy to share those discoveries with you..... I have heard there are people that have hip bones.......I wonder if I have those too.....well we will just have to wait and see.....
Still fighting the good fight........see you next week.......
I even can feel the hint of a rib ......of course I have to be laying down to feel it......but it is there along with according to rumor several other ribs.
So I have a neck....smaller ankles......ring almost falling off my fingers....a watch band that will no longer stay in place.....shirts that are becoming loose and the shoulders of those shirts are now falling off my shoulders. Getting my bathing suit over my ass is not quite as much a struggle......oh and the girls are not taking up as much space as before......my stomach is getting flatter.....or less distended I guess.......and I can now clearly see my C-section scar which runs from just below my belly button to about you know where......guess what.....it's crooked........my stomach looks like two pieces of pizza dough with a line down the middle........how attractive is that???? But due to the weight loss it is more pronounced.......not that anyone but me.... oh and my Dr. would see it and for my Dr's. benefit he would only have to see it once a year .......not a pretty sight.......my neck (as you remember I just discovered recently).....now has some loose skin......I hope I do not end up with a turkey neck.......
Who the hell am I to complain???? I am losing weight which for my health is the best choice I could make.
And I still have an incredibly long way to go.......and I didn't hit 50 this week-end. Maybe next week or the week after......but you will notice I am NOT giving up.
I am giving a 1 minute speech at a meeting in 2 weeks about a time when I blew it or struggled and how I got through the rough time. How do I share over 50 years of failures into 1 minute......and try to keep it light and humorous????? Our meeting leader asked for 2 or 3 volunteers and I kind of put my hand up like you would at an auction if you were not totally sure you wanted to make the bid.....LOL.....but my leader saw it and pointed to me and acknowledged my hand raised at half-mast...LOL.
I am so fighting to hit 75 pounds gone by July and below my drivers license weight by the fall......realistic goals but many days I can't think about those numbers......they are too overwhelming!!!!
By the time I hit 75 pounds gone ....I will need to buy some new slacks.....there will really be no option......I am not even sure what size I will fit into then??? I am sure it will be smaller and then hopefully as I continue along I will need to replace those clothes with another set of smaller ones.
I saw my WW lifetime goal on my weigh in card today.......I really don't think I can reach that number......I haven't weighed that little since 1973.......LOL.......I guess it is sad that I lost so much time ignoring my weight and now that I am looking to the end of my 50's I finally decide to get healthy??? What a jackass not taking the time before......
Well as I continue to discover body parts, I will be more than happy to share those discoveries with you..... I have heard there are people that have hip bones.......I wonder if I have those too.....well we will just have to wait and see.....
Still fighting the good fight........see you next week.......
Sunday, March 1, 2015
Hanging In There......
Last week I didn't write an entry.......I was in a foul mood and was kind enough to think why should everyone have to suffer along with me? I don't mind inviting you on my journey but there is no reason to rain on every one's parade.
What got me in such a lousy state of mind?? .8 pounds.....yes a little more than 3 sticks of butter sent me into a tailspin. I GAINED .8 pounds!!! That's right I let 8 tenths of a pound do that to me. That is crazy!!! I don't want the scale to cause me to get that upset. Anyone really successful at Weight Watchers has had weeks with gains. There is no such thing as loss after loss week after week. And there are those ugly plateau's too. It is all part of getting healthier.
Of course, the rational side of me decided starvation was the best route to take. Followed by getting mad at everyone I knew. Aren't some of you glad you weren't around me last week????
By Sunday night, I was apologizing to those I was abrupt with....it's not their fault and you know what else......it's not my fault either. I played by the rules and tracked all my foods but my body decided it wasn't in the mood to drop weight. I am sure all of my fat cells got together and had a meeting....they decided go screw with me and make sure I knew who was in charge.
Well guess what fat cells......there is a new Sheriff in town and I am taking you as prisoners. I am in this for the long haul.....no overnight fixes....a daily battle between me and my fat. The fat cells climb into my brain and try to convince me that it's OK to eat a donut or chips or mashed potato's and gravy and all the other things I crave. They have even teamed up with the Girl Scout cookies in my pantry that I have not opened. The fat cells have convinced the Girl Scout cookies to call my name around 9:00PM each day.
What the fat cells don't know is I can have a donut or chips or mashed potato's or even those GS cookies....it just needs to be in moderation and a correct portion size. A portion means 2 cookies not a whole sleeve. Did you know 13 chips is a serving size? One donut is 6 WW points. Oh the mashed potato's ......probably couldn't justify too much of those.
I regrouped and got myself together and continued the battle. I killed 4.6 pounds of fat cells this week!! Grand total 48.8 pounds of miserable fat is gone!! So close to 50....so close.
So I may have had a pity party for one and I am not saying it won't happen again but I have to remind myself there are worse things in the world that a slight gain. People are dealing with illnesses and health issues that might not be an easy fix and job issues and relationship issues. And then I have the nerve to go off the deep end over a small gain? Why wasn't I as concerned on the way up the weight ladder as I am going down??
To those who have health issues they are fighting.....or job issues they are struggling with.......or those with relationship issues.....know that I am thinking of you and sending you good thoughts and vibes.......
One of the ladies in my WW class shared this quote last week......"I already know what it feels like to give up. I want to see what happens if I don't". I love that quote!! Well I guess I am starting to see what it is like to not give up.......it is hard but it can be done!!
See you next week.......
What got me in such a lousy state of mind?? .8 pounds.....yes a little more than 3 sticks of butter sent me into a tailspin. I GAINED .8 pounds!!! That's right I let 8 tenths of a pound do that to me. That is crazy!!! I don't want the scale to cause me to get that upset. Anyone really successful at Weight Watchers has had weeks with gains. There is no such thing as loss after loss week after week. And there are those ugly plateau's too. It is all part of getting healthier.
Of course, the rational side of me decided starvation was the best route to take. Followed by getting mad at everyone I knew. Aren't some of you glad you weren't around me last week????
By Sunday night, I was apologizing to those I was abrupt with....it's not their fault and you know what else......it's not my fault either. I played by the rules and tracked all my foods but my body decided it wasn't in the mood to drop weight. I am sure all of my fat cells got together and had a meeting....they decided go screw with me and make sure I knew who was in charge.
Well guess what fat cells......there is a new Sheriff in town and I am taking you as prisoners. I am in this for the long haul.....no overnight fixes....a daily battle between me and my fat. The fat cells climb into my brain and try to convince me that it's OK to eat a donut or chips or mashed potato's and gravy and all the other things I crave. They have even teamed up with the Girl Scout cookies in my pantry that I have not opened. The fat cells have convinced the Girl Scout cookies to call my name around 9:00PM each day.
What the fat cells don't know is I can have a donut or chips or mashed potato's or even those GS cookies....it just needs to be in moderation and a correct portion size. A portion means 2 cookies not a whole sleeve. Did you know 13 chips is a serving size? One donut is 6 WW points. Oh the mashed potato's ......probably couldn't justify too much of those.
I regrouped and got myself together and continued the battle. I killed 4.6 pounds of fat cells this week!! Grand total 48.8 pounds of miserable fat is gone!! So close to 50....so close.
So I may have had a pity party for one and I am not saying it won't happen again but I have to remind myself there are worse things in the world that a slight gain. People are dealing with illnesses and health issues that might not be an easy fix and job issues and relationship issues. And then I have the nerve to go off the deep end over a small gain? Why wasn't I as concerned on the way up the weight ladder as I am going down??
To those who have health issues they are fighting.....or job issues they are struggling with.......or those with relationship issues.....know that I am thinking of you and sending you good thoughts and vibes.......
One of the ladies in my WW class shared this quote last week......"I already know what it feels like to give up. I want to see what happens if I don't". I love that quote!! Well I guess I am starting to see what it is like to not give up.......it is hard but it can be done!!
See you next week.......
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