Not Reading The Obits Anymore

I used to read the obituaries every day. I would look to see what people died from and how old they were. A good day was when everyone was older than me. I hated when I didn't know what the cause of death was.....I am a mess!!!

I have decided not to read the obits anymore. It was too depressing. Why focus on death......I need to focus on life. I have spent too much time worrying about dying......it is time to start living.

When they write my obit.....I want it to talk about my family, friends, that I knew how to live and laugh and love......

If you let it.....life can be depressing......that is not the the path I want to take......I am trying so hard to stay positive and celebrate each day.....I don't need anything that might bring me down.

Give me more comics.......I can always use a good laugh......and it burns calories when I laugh.....that's a win win.....

Another good quote from my friend Mary.....

what the caterpillar believes is the end of life, the butterfly knows is just the beginning....

My first 54 years I was a caterpillar.....now I am in my cocoon......I am hoping a butterfly emerges soon.

The changes sometimes are small......opting for different foods and quantities of foods. Some changes are big.......being able to workout, increased endurance and slowly building confidence.....

I am not sure how long my cocoon stage will last but once I break free......watch out!!!!!

Observations Of People

As I walked down the aisle of each flight....I felt like people were looking at me and thinking "I hope she is not sitting next to me". Now that may not have always been the truth but in my mind it was.....

I have to say each person I sat next to did not make me feel uncomfortable.....I was very aware of their space and did not invade it.

Maybe because of the issues I have dealt with I bend over backwards to not hurt peoples feelings.....sometimes at my expense. I am hoping there is a day when I won't be looked at as a person who stands out and even then I hope I look at others with compassion and recognize each of us carries some baggage ....for some of us the baggage is on the inside and for some like me......it is on the outside (it does impact the inside too).....

I Really Did Not Miss A Workout

I was concerned that I would miss my time at the gym and with my trainer while I was away last week. Not to worry.....

I climbed and walked and climbed and walked. I was up and I was down. I did more activity in those 5 days that I do during my workouts at the gym. And it was constant....

By the time I got in the car Friday night to go home.....my whole body ached. I did feel a sense of accomplishment that I was able to do all the tasks I needed to do. I am not thrilled that I have to do it all again next week but I know I can and that makes a big difference.

So Carol......don't worry that I slacked off while I was away.....I definitely did not!!!!

My Biggest Travel Fear

I will now reveal my biggest flying fear.....

Will I be able to fit in the little airplane seat??? Do you know how difficult that is to admit?? I have read about airlines that charge people of size (oh how I hate that phrase) for 2 seats. I was so afraid that I would be singled out and told I had to pay for 2 seats. How would I explain this to my employer? For most people....this never crosses their minds. For me......it was all I could think about.....I was paralyzed with fear.

Imagine my relief when my butt fit in the seat!!!!! I am not going to say it wasn't a little snug......it was..... but I did not overhang into my neighbors space. I did not have to move the arm rest for additional space either.

At least when I travel next week, I will have one less thing to worry about....now that I know I can fit in the seat.....I need to work at have a little extra room to spare......

I Need To Sleep

I am a restless sleeper. Most nights I sleep in my recliner. It is comfy, tilts back and lulls me into a fit full slumber. Last week, I spent 4 nights in a bed at a hotel. A nice big king size bed. The most I slept was 2 hours in a row and then I would wake up. I walked from one side of the bed to the other, I rearranged the pillows a zillion times, I even tried sleeping in the chair in the room.....still no rest. By the 6:30 wake up call.....I had gotten a few hours sleep but it was not very restful.

It was wonderful to get home to my recliner and have 6-7 hours of uninterrupted sleep. Next week, I have to spend 2 nights in a hotel....I know I can handle it because on night 3 I am back in my recliner.....nice and comfy.....

I Have To Go To Terminal What and It's Where??

I have a suggestion for the airlines......if I am flying United.....why can't all the United flights be at the same terminal???? On my flight from Philly to Portland on the same airlines as my flight from Columbia to Philly......why do I have to hike to another terminal. Or worse, when I had to switch planes in Washington DC (Dulles).....why in God's name would I have to take 2 people movers, approximately 8 escalators and a train to get to my next flight......

Who plans this.....is someone sitting behind a camera saying.....watch this person try to get to their next flight.....and laughing.

Trust me the Dulles Airport thing was not funny......it was exhausting. I had to climb out of the plane in the rain, walk on the tarmac in the rain.....climb another set of wet steel stairs...in the rain. Then I was told it was a 15 minute walk.....yeah right. There was a 15 minute walk in addition to the people movers, escalators and the train. It took about 25 minutes. I wasn't sure if I was wet from the rain or sweat.

By the time I got to my gate.....I was a mess......I thought I would cry. Of course, then my flight was delayed. And these are supposed to be the friendly skies????