I get to work and have my breakfast. I either have oatmeal with Brummel and Brown or 2 extreme fitness flatbreads (1 point each on Weight Watchers) and a container of Weight Watchers cream cheese (2 points). This is around 8:30. So why oh why would I reach for pretzels at 9 A.M.???? The answer......mindless eating. No doubt about it!!! So the other morning when I realized what I was doing.....I drank some water and grabbed a piece of gum. The crazy part is that I do it without thinking. It is like driving home from work.....sometimes I pull in the driveway and can't remember the trip home. Have you ever had that happen.....you pay attention to the trip but it is so automatic that you don't really go through a thought process.
I have to work harder to focus on what I put in my mouth. I have to really think before I bite. This will take some effort and concentration. It also helps if I keep myself busy and have a large container of good old water near by.
As we all know old habits are hard to break but not impossible......just another thing to work on....as if I didn't have enough to think about already.....
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Einstein Says.....
"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning." — Albert Einstein
I think this pretty much sums up my life....
What have I learned from my past????
I have learned not to neglect myself. I have learned that I can put me first and the whole world doesn't fall apart. Because I neglected me I am where I am today. Poor food choices, poor self-esteem, no regular exercise equals the me of the past.
Live for today.....
I am doing that now. By putting myself first, making better choices and not focusing on where I have been but looking toward where I am going. Life is better for me now.....better than it has been in ages. I spend time working out, eating better, writing, napping (not at work) and planning for the future.
Hope for tomorrow.....
I have a zillion hopes and dreams. Each day I add more to my list. While a little dark cloud still follows me around......it is not the huge storm cloud that used to hang around all the time.
Don't stop asking questions.....
Well Mr. Einstein.....I ask questions all the time.....what should I eat, what new activity should I attempt, what should I write about this week, what can I do to make the losing go faster than a snails pace, how can I come to accept myself as I am....Well Albert it might not be as important or intelligent as E=MCsquared (I couldn't figure out how to make the little 2 for squared....LOL) but to me these are thought provoking
Maybe I would do better writing about Simon Says vs. Einstein Says......
I think this pretty much sums up my life....
What have I learned from my past????
I have learned not to neglect myself. I have learned that I can put me first and the whole world doesn't fall apart. Because I neglected me I am where I am today. Poor food choices, poor self-esteem, no regular exercise equals the me of the past.
Live for today.....
I am doing that now. By putting myself first, making better choices and not focusing on where I have been but looking toward where I am going. Life is better for me now.....better than it has been in ages. I spend time working out, eating better, writing, napping (not at work) and planning for the future.
Hope for tomorrow.....
I have a zillion hopes and dreams. Each day I add more to my list. While a little dark cloud still follows me around......it is not the huge storm cloud that used to hang around all the time.
Don't stop asking questions.....
Well Mr. Einstein.....I ask questions all the time.....what should I eat, what new activity should I attempt, what should I write about this week, what can I do to make the losing go faster than a snails pace, how can I come to accept myself as I am....Well Albert it might not be as important or intelligent as E=MCsquared (I couldn't figure out how to make the little 2 for squared....LOL) but to me these are thought provoking
Maybe I would do better writing about Simon Says vs. Einstein Says......
Sunday, July 17, 2011
My Personal Dresser Comes Through For Me
A while back I was "kind" of joking about making this blog into a book and going on a book tour. I had friends volunteer to handle different tasks such a scheduling, being the front person, etc....
Diana, offered to my personal dresser. We have had a zillion conversations about the kind of clothes I would like to wear and my struggles to find the right look. I was lucky enough to have Kathy take what I envisioned and make it into the now famous "Oprah" top.
Anyway, on Friday I get a message from Diana, she wants to show me a top she thought I would like. She was going to buy it for me but she wasn't sure of the size and knows how self conscious I am about giving out any numbers in regard to me. Like any good personal shopper, she stopped to see me and had taken a picture of the top on her phone. Guess what........that lady knows my taste. As soon as I saw the picture I said "Oh yeah.....I love it". She then very gently mentioned the sizes they had it in and fortunately, they have it in my size (which is down from what I used to wear). After work on Friday, she went to pick it up for me!!!! I can't wait to put it on......I am so excited.
That's what I mean about friends......they think about you and know you sometimes better than you do yourself. I feel like I have my own.....Rachel Zoe!!!
How lucky can I get!!!! Thanks Diana.....your hired....I know you will be a blast on the book tour and always have me looking fabulous. Maybe I should schedule a lunch between Diana, my personal dresser and Kathy, my personal couturier......I am sure I would end up with an amazing wardrobe.........why didn't I think of that before?????
Diana, offered to my personal dresser. We have had a zillion conversations about the kind of clothes I would like to wear and my struggles to find the right look. I was lucky enough to have Kathy take what I envisioned and make it into the now famous "Oprah" top.
Anyway, on Friday I get a message from Diana, she wants to show me a top she thought I would like. She was going to buy it for me but she wasn't sure of the size and knows how self conscious I am about giving out any numbers in regard to me. Like any good personal shopper, she stopped to see me and had taken a picture of the top on her phone. Guess what........that lady knows my taste. As soon as I saw the picture I said "Oh yeah.....I love it". She then very gently mentioned the sizes they had it in and fortunately, they have it in my size (which is down from what I used to wear). After work on Friday, she went to pick it up for me!!!! I can't wait to put it on......I am so excited.
That's what I mean about friends......they think about you and know you sometimes better than you do yourself. I feel like I have my own.....Rachel Zoe!!!
How lucky can I get!!!! Thanks Diana.....your hired....I know you will be a blast on the book tour and always have me looking fabulous. Maybe I should schedule a lunch between Diana, my personal dresser and Kathy, my personal couturier......I am sure I would end up with an amazing wardrobe.........why didn't I think of that before?????
Italian Class
Besides the focus on healthy eating and getting healthier by working out at the gym, I also take Italian class once a week. I have always wanted to learn a foreign language. With a maiden name like Raboni and a married name like Pizzolongo it only seemed natural to want to learn Italian. I didn't have the finances to take a class. The suddenly I received an e-mail that a member of the Sons of Italy was willing to give Italian lessons.......FREE!!!!
Well, it has been 6 months and I am very slowly picking up the language. I have a harder time when someone speaks to me in Italian than trying to memorize the nouns, etc. When we do the speaking part, I try to find a word or 2 I recognize and build on that to see if I am getting it right.
The class is not only about speaking the language but also about the culture. Many times someone in the class will ask "How is this done in Italy?"
The added benefit is the friends I have made in class. You all know I operate in my comfort zone so going to class that first night not knowing anyone but Jenn was scary for me. I am so glad I went......I have made 7 new friends and have had a new family embrace me. Marika, our teacher, is very patient and knows I suffer from "test anxiety". Jenn is great at drilling me on nouns and such. There are times we get off track and end up talking about wills, customs, the Army.....LOL......we can head off in a zillion directions.
I am glad that I didn't let my fear of stepping put of my comfort zone stop me from going to that first class. So as I continue to work on my health, weight and physical activity.......I am also engaging my brain trying to learn a new language.
It is amazing how much all of these changes have added to my life........I never thought it could be so much fun......I am enjoying even minute of it.....how great is that!!!!!!
Well, it has been 6 months and I am very slowly picking up the language. I have a harder time when someone speaks to me in Italian than trying to memorize the nouns, etc. When we do the speaking part, I try to find a word or 2 I recognize and build on that to see if I am getting it right.
The class is not only about speaking the language but also about the culture. Many times someone in the class will ask "How is this done in Italy?"
The added benefit is the friends I have made in class. You all know I operate in my comfort zone so going to class that first night not knowing anyone but Jenn was scary for me. I am so glad I went......I have made 7 new friends and have had a new family embrace me. Marika, our teacher, is very patient and knows I suffer from "test anxiety". Jenn is great at drilling me on nouns and such. There are times we get off track and end up talking about wills, customs, the Army.....LOL......we can head off in a zillion directions.
I am glad that I didn't let my fear of stepping put of my comfort zone stop me from going to that first class. So as I continue to work on my health, weight and physical activity.......I am also engaging my brain trying to learn a new language.
It is amazing how much all of these changes have added to my life........I never thought it could be so much fun......I am enjoying even minute of it.....how great is that!!!!!!
Feedback on Sharing My Blog
I have had notices on facebook about my blog for 2 weeks. The feedback has been wonderful!!!! I have heard from cousins I haven't seen in years, from elementary school friends that I was in class with 45 years ago, new friends from my Italian class told me how much they enjoy my blog. So, I guess it was the right thing to do....
People have commented on my honesty and baring all my thoughts (well almost almost.....there are still a few things I am not ready to discuss even in this forum). I am giving you alot more info then I even expected too.....it is like peeling the layers of me and trying to figure out how much I can comfortably let go.
During the week, I start thinking about blog entries.....maybe something very funny happened or something serious or sad or something that got my mind going. I store them up (sometimes sending myself e-mails with titles). On Sunday, I sit at my computer and the words seem to pour out. Sometimes I laugh while I write, sometimes I cry......I can be very emotional.......are you surprised knowing me???? LOL I cry when I laugh, I cry when I am angry, I cry when I am sad......I am very self-conscious about it especially when I am angry.....maybe it is because I am so passionate about things like family, friends, life, love and laughter. That is what I try to share with you each week.
From the feedback I have gotten in the last few weeks......it sounds like I have been successful.... :-)
People have commented on my honesty and baring all my thoughts (well almost almost.....there are still a few things I am not ready to discuss even in this forum). I am giving you alot more info then I even expected too.....it is like peeling the layers of me and trying to figure out how much I can comfortably let go.
During the week, I start thinking about blog entries.....maybe something very funny happened or something serious or sad or something that got my mind going. I store them up (sometimes sending myself e-mails with titles). On Sunday, I sit at my computer and the words seem to pour out. Sometimes I laugh while I write, sometimes I cry......I can be very emotional.......are you surprised knowing me???? LOL I cry when I laugh, I cry when I am angry, I cry when I am sad......I am very self-conscious about it especially when I am angry.....maybe it is because I am so passionate about things like family, friends, life, love and laughter. That is what I try to share with you each week.
From the feedback I have gotten in the last few weeks......it sounds like I have been successful.... :-)
Tough Decisions....
Sometimes life throws things at you that force you to be a grown-up and make big decisions. This was one of those weeks......
While I cannot go into specifics yet by next week I will share it with all of you. When I have to make a big decision......I let it consume me. It is all I think about. I stay awake at night trying to decide the right choice. It is like playing chess and trying to anticipate how this move will affect that move and on and on. I haven't even shared this week's struggle with Bob because that would only add to my indecision.....uuggghh. There is nothing worse when you are struggling for someone to keep saying "What have you decided?" or "have you thought about this"......
Listen is is hard enough to sit up on the fence without anyone trying to knock you off or causing you to loose balance......as we all know balance is not one of my strong suits so I sure don't need anyone adding to my confusion......I would hate to end up like Humpty Dumpty.....there are times I felt I looked like Humpty....now not so much anymore.....maybe now very Rubenesque.....LOL
The point is......I have thought about this from every angle.......I have done all of my "what ifs" and I am comfortable with my choice.....
So here are the rules.....no second guessing me......no "are you sure's are allowed".....no "well how about".....I can do that all by myself thank you!!!
While I cannot go into specifics yet by next week I will share it with all of you. When I have to make a big decision......I let it consume me. It is all I think about. I stay awake at night trying to decide the right choice. It is like playing chess and trying to anticipate how this move will affect that move and on and on. I haven't even shared this week's struggle with Bob because that would only add to my indecision.....uuggghh. There is nothing worse when you are struggling for someone to keep saying "What have you decided?" or "have you thought about this"......
Listen is is hard enough to sit up on the fence without anyone trying to knock you off or causing you to loose balance......as we all know balance is not one of my strong suits so I sure don't need anyone adding to my confusion......I would hate to end up like Humpty Dumpty.....there are times I felt I looked like Humpty....now not so much anymore.....maybe now very Rubenesque.....LOL
The point is......I have thought about this from every angle.......I have done all of my "what ifs" and I am comfortable with my choice.....
So here are the rules.....no second guessing me......no "are you sure's are allowed".....no "well how about".....I can do that all by myself thank you!!!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Iphone Apps....
My daughter talked me into an IPhone......
I am not very good at technical things. After a week, I am still not sure of what I am doing. I have not figured out how to hear with the phone to my ear....how hard should that be?? So until I get that figured out, I have been using my speaker phone. That leads to another problem......I keep trying to put the phone to my ear and have been accidentally hitting the mute button. I had at least 5 conversations this week and had people saying " Donna, Donna I cannot hear you" and there I am yelling into my phone "hello, hello". It took several days of this nonsense to figure out what I was doing wrong. Duh.....
Then I decided to explore apps I can load onto the phone. One is called Calorie Counter. It is a free app. Once it was loaded I decided to see how it worked. What is the first question it asked.......my weight. UGH.....even the phone wants to know my business......so what did I do.......I lied to my phone. Yes, I did say I lied to my phone. Want to know why???? I am afraid I will lose my phone and I don't want the total stranger who finds my phone to know what I weigh. How pathetic is that? I also have a hard time putting in the real number....right now.
Eventually, I will be able to put a number that I am comfortable with but until then.....I am in total denial.....
I am not very good at technical things. After a week, I am still not sure of what I am doing. I have not figured out how to hear with the phone to my ear....how hard should that be?? So until I get that figured out, I have been using my speaker phone. That leads to another problem......I keep trying to put the phone to my ear and have been accidentally hitting the mute button. I had at least 5 conversations this week and had people saying " Donna, Donna I cannot hear you" and there I am yelling into my phone "hello, hello". It took several days of this nonsense to figure out what I was doing wrong. Duh.....
Then I decided to explore apps I can load onto the phone. One is called Calorie Counter. It is a free app. Once it was loaded I decided to see how it worked. What is the first question it asked.......my weight. UGH.....even the phone wants to know my business......so what did I do.......I lied to my phone. Yes, I did say I lied to my phone. Want to know why???? I am afraid I will lose my phone and I don't want the total stranger who finds my phone to know what I weigh. How pathetic is that? I also have a hard time putting in the real number....right now.
Eventually, I will be able to put a number that I am comfortable with but until then.....I am in total denial.....
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