I hate walking into a room of people I do not know. Going into an office where I do not know most of the people is a test of my self-confidence. This is hard for me. Until people know me on the inside all they get is the visual.....the fat girl. Once you get to know me, you know I am more than what you see. I hadn't felt like the fat girl for a while......not that I felt like Twiggy either but I was starting to feel comfortable in my own skin.
Well, I am back to square one when it comes to my office persona. Hopefully, it will not take too long for my new co-workers to get to know "Donna".....the person with a great sense of humor and a wicked laugh, the person who can cry when she is happy, sad, mad or laughing really hard.
Until that time, the fat girl will just have to work it out.....she has been there before and like in the past......will eventually fade so only I can see her. With each step, each choice of a right food and each step at the gym.......I am erasing her......maybe.....eventually she will disappear from my vision too.....
Saturday, August 6, 2011
When you change your mind, you change the world.
How is that for a great title......no I didn't make it up......I read it somewhere. I can't remember who the author was but it did get me thinking. By changing my mind about the things I eat, the choice to exercise and the working at a healthier lifestyle......am I changing the world???
My world.....YES!!! And changing my world affects others like a ripple in the water when you throw a rock in the water. It affects my family, friends and maybe even those I do not know......my trainer said I could help to inspire others. I have never thought of myself as inspirational.
But the idea that what I am doing might impact someone else.....WOW.....that is pretty cool.....I really like that.....it makes me want to keep going.....even if it is just for one more day........
My world.....YES!!! And changing my world affects others like a ripple in the water when you throw a rock in the water. It affects my family, friends and maybe even those I do not know......my trainer said I could help to inspire others. I have never thought of myself as inspirational.
But the idea that what I am doing might impact someone else.....WOW.....that is pretty cool.....I really like that.....it makes me want to keep going.....even if it is just for one more day........
Still working out in the heat
OK.....I don't know how much more of this heat I can take. It has been 1000 degrees since the 2nd week of May. I have yet to miss time at the gym. I have to tell you getting out of the car to a wall of heat to go somewhere that is meant for me to sweat.....ok is not normal. I sweat while working out in the ladies gym, I sweat while working out on the floor.....I even sweat in the pool. This shows my commitment to a healthier lifestyle but I also think it shows I should be committed. While I am sweating..... I try to think about last winter when I was so cold in the pool.
In a few months (hopefully), I will once again be complaining about how cold it is when I leave the gym. Until then......I just have to think of each droplet of sweat as a small step toward my ultimate goal.....I know it will be worth it....right???
In a few months (hopefully), I will once again be complaining about how cold it is when I leave the gym. Until then......I just have to think of each droplet of sweat as a small step toward my ultimate goal.....I know it will be worth it....right???
I am amazed at Facebook connections
There are things about Facebook that amaze me. The connection to old friends, the memories brought back and the chance to check in with family. This week I really saw FB in action. I asked my FB family and friends to go to the Lexington Medical Center page and "like" it. They could comment on why they liked my blog so I might have a shot at being one of the 8 bloggers selected to be part of EveryWomansBlog every month. At first, my directions were not that clear. My cousin, Teri, asked for further instructions. Then a friend from the 7th grade, Elaine, also asked for more info. Next thing I knew, Teri was talking to Elaine......LOL......so here is a cousin I have seen in hhhhmmmm 20 years helping a friend I haven't seen in almost 40 years. Come on.....you have to admit that is pretty wild......modern technology.......amazing!!!!
Who says Water Aerobics is not a good workout
I went to water aerobic on Thursday. OMG!!!!!!!!!! The class was intense!!! It was non-stop running, jumping, kicking and on and on. The instructor was great. She kept us moving the whole time. By the time we were done, my arms ached and my legs were numb. At 6:30 she had us stretching and I thought.....so that is why she made it so intense.....the class is only a half hour tonight......but I was wrong!!!! That was just the break she was giving us before we started with the weights. I was so tired I just put on my cover-up and walked out of the gym. My bathing suit was dripping wet and my cover-up was soaked but I didn't care.....I just wanted to get in the car and breath.
Anyone, who turns their nose up at water aerobics and thinks it is a class for weenies should have been at that class. I am sure I was quite a sight when I had to put my hands on the side of the pool and jump up as if I was trying to get out of the pool.......thank goodness there wasn't a camera for that lovely sight!!!
No one ever said this was going to be easy...did they?????
Anyone, who turns their nose up at water aerobics and thinks it is a class for weenies should have been at that class. I am sure I was quite a sight when I had to put my hands on the side of the pool and jump up as if I was trying to get out of the pool.......thank goodness there wasn't a camera for that lovely sight!!!
No one ever said this was going to be easy...did they?????
How to eat less.....get a new job
I started my new job this week. I was nervous driving there the first day so I skipped breakfast. By lunchtime, I was famished. My new boss invited me out to lunch with the other managers. We went to Chili's. I ordered a salad, did not eat the chips and salsa and drank diet coke. I was proud of myself for the choices I made. In the afternoon, I had a vitatop and some pretzels.....I know I know I need to stop with the pretzels....
The rest of the week I was out of my routine. I got to work and had meetings to go to so I didn't get to eat breakfast. I am in an office right now and feel funny closing the door to eat lunch. I don't want to be antisocial but also don't want people who do not know me seeing me eat. So I would hurry up and eat a piece of string cheese and some turkey pepperoni. For lunch, I would eat flat bread with low sodium ham and cheese or a PB&J sandwich. I might have a vitatop or some pretzels for a snack. I was good about drinking a lot of water. I also found out there is an ice machine so now I will bring my water mug with me.
Maybe by next week, I will feel more comfortable......I doubt it.....it will take a while.....once the people at my new job get to know me.......the last thing I want is them to think of me as the fat lady that eats in her office.....uugghh....maybe I should stop thinking I am that important.....I am probably thinking of it more than anyone else is......
The rest of the week I was out of my routine. I got to work and had meetings to go to so I didn't get to eat breakfast. I am in an office right now and feel funny closing the door to eat lunch. I don't want to be antisocial but also don't want people who do not know me seeing me eat. So I would hurry up and eat a piece of string cheese and some turkey pepperoni. For lunch, I would eat flat bread with low sodium ham and cheese or a PB&J sandwich. I might have a vitatop or some pretzels for a snack. I was good about drinking a lot of water. I also found out there is an ice machine so now I will bring my water mug with me.
Maybe by next week, I will feel more comfortable......I doubt it.....it will take a while.....once the people at my new job get to know me.......the last thing I want is them to think of me as the fat lady that eats in her office.....uugghh....maybe I should stop thinking I am that important.....I am probably thinking of it more than anyone else is......
Squeezing into small spaces....
When you are not petite you tend to analyze situations.....am I too big for this.....will I fit in that........and on and on.
When I left the gym the other night the quickest way to my car was walking between two cars. For most people.....no big deal. But as a person of size (OK who made up that term....LOL), I tend to look and say "Oh that looks tight" and then walk around the cars to a bigger opening. Once I checked to see no one was watching me.....I decided to walk between the two closely parked cars. Guess what???? I made it through with space to spare. These are the changes that I do not see.....but now at least I have the courage to try.
I am sure there are those of you that think....she is crazy but for me it was another reason to celebrate and I did celebrate......in my mind. At this point I will celebrate every small victory I can.....
When I left the gym the other night the quickest way to my car was walking between two cars. For most people.....no big deal. But as a person of size (OK who made up that term....LOL), I tend to look and say "Oh that looks tight" and then walk around the cars to a bigger opening. Once I checked to see no one was watching me.....I decided to walk between the two closely parked cars. Guess what???? I made it through with space to spare. These are the changes that I do not see.....but now at least I have the courage to try.
I am sure there are those of you that think....she is crazy but for me it was another reason to celebrate and I did celebrate......in my mind. At this point I will celebrate every small victory I can.....
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