As I mentioned in my previous post, I have a crazy week ahead....
One of the keys to success is planning. I have planned time to work out. I have also planned my meals for the week. I already made enough salad for a few lunches. I have figured out what to have for breakfast and in between meal snacks (if I want them). I am also trying to keep the points and calorie counts low so when I am out to dinner on Wednesday, I will have a little more flexibility. I need to plan, I can't do this cold. If I don't plan, chances are I will make some mistakes. I am trying to minimize my options in order to be successful.
Lately, I have been thinking about doughnuts......why doughnuts.....I am not sure......could it have something to do with the New Krispy Kreme that opened 5 minutes from my house. I drive by it all the time. I am not saying I will never have one of those doughnuts (although I would probably have a Dunkin Donut instead) but right now I am choosing to not stop and buy one. When I know one doughnut is 6 points in the Weight Watchers world, I have to think is it worth it??? NO, especially since one would not fill me up.....more like 2 or 3.....I am not willing to waste empty calories on them.
Filling foods is what I need.....that is why I love oatmeal. I also love salad......it can be an adventure....tomato's, cukes, chic peas, mushrooms.....yum.
At least for this week.....I have a plan of action. This is something I didn't do in the past. Hopefully, my planning will pay off........now can someone change the direction of the wind and stop the smell of doughnuts from passing my house. Also, please pull the plug on the "Hot Doughnut's Ready Now" sign......please.......
Sunday, August 14, 2011
A Hectic Week Ahead
I have a busy week coming up. I have a late meeting at the office on Monday, Tuesday is the gym after work, Wednesday I have a Manager's dinner after work, Thursday is my date with my trainer, my Italian class is meeting on Friday this week and of course back to the gym Saturday and Sunday. There goes the week....
Instead of looking at this with dread, I am trying to put a positive twist on all of this.....
Monday - late meeting - a chance to meet with Sr. Management- getting a feel for what is expected of me.
Tuesday - water aerobics - although it means I get home after 7 it is ME time.
Wednesday- Manager's dinner - this will be a good opportunity to get to know the other Manager's and Sr. Management outside the office. They will also get to know me.....what a treat for them....LOL
Thursday - my date with Carol, my trainer - time for me to see how I have improved physically and what I can do
Friday - Italian Class- this has been such a win-win.....making new friends and trying to learn a new language
Saturday and Sunday - back to the gym - more me time and a chance to sweat
So it's is not really so bad.....I will not jump out of bed on Saturday and Sunday at the break of dawn and will most likely squeeze in a nap but if I look at this week as an adventure and not with dread it will be fine.
I just have to go in with the right attitude and recognize this is just going to be a crazy week......I am sure it will fly......
Instead of looking at this with dread, I am trying to put a positive twist on all of this.....
Monday - late meeting - a chance to meet with Sr. Management- getting a feel for what is expected of me.
Tuesday - water aerobics - although it means I get home after 7 it is ME time.
Wednesday- Manager's dinner - this will be a good opportunity to get to know the other Manager's and Sr. Management outside the office. They will also get to know me.....what a treat for them....LOL
Thursday - my date with Carol, my trainer - time for me to see how I have improved physically and what I can do
Friday - Italian Class- this has been such a win-win.....making new friends and trying to learn a new language
Saturday and Sunday - back to the gym - more me time and a chance to sweat
So it's is not really so bad.....I will not jump out of bed on Saturday and Sunday at the break of dawn and will most likely squeeze in a nap but if I look at this week as an adventure and not with dread it will be fine.
I just have to go in with the right attitude and recognize this is just going to be a crazy week......I am sure it will fly......
Signs Of Change
Sometimes it is the minor changes I recognize that I need to celebrate....
Getting the seat belt across me in the car instead of looking like I am having a personal tug of war between the seat belt buckle and the catch it goes into. The increased distance between my stomach and the steering wheel. My rings swing around my finger compared with when they were snug and didn't move. Choosing yes I said choosing to not eat something. I am drinking so much more water each day. That equals more walking to the ladies room (another plus).
Each night I write in a journal. I list 5 good things about the day. I have less days when I struggle with items for the list. I pray each night to wake in the morning. Each morning I say a prayer of thanks for another day.
I realize I have so much further to go but I am trying to leave the past to the past. I am learning to forgive myself for the neglect that put me in this position. I try to look at each day with gratitude and know the changes I have made since January 2010 are the foundation on which I am building my future. My Dad used to say "You have to build a firm foundation." That is what I am doing now.....one building block at a time.....
Getting the seat belt across me in the car instead of looking like I am having a personal tug of war between the seat belt buckle and the catch it goes into. The increased distance between my stomach and the steering wheel. My rings swing around my finger compared with when they were snug and didn't move. Choosing yes I said choosing to not eat something. I am drinking so much more water each day. That equals more walking to the ladies room (another plus).
Each night I write in a journal. I list 5 good things about the day. I have less days when I struggle with items for the list. I pray each night to wake in the morning. Each morning I say a prayer of thanks for another day.
I realize I have so much further to go but I am trying to leave the past to the past. I am learning to forgive myself for the neglect that put me in this position. I try to look at each day with gratitude and know the changes I have made since January 2010 are the foundation on which I am building my future. My Dad used to say "You have to build a firm foundation." That is what I am doing now.....one building block at a time.....
The New Job
Being the new person in the office can be hard. You are trying to absorb as much as possible. I have almost finished a whole pad of paper on notes. Notes that I probably won't need in a few weeks. At the Site Meeting, you have to go up front when you are introduced. I think you all know about how I feel about standing out in public. I have a Blackberry that I am trying to figure out. I am having problems getting access to some systems. The IT people speak a different language than me. I want to be up and running, I want to come into work and.....work. I know I am only a week or so away from that but I can't wait. I have had some really good help from some of the other managers and that is a plus. This week I will be pulling reports and Lisa is going to let me do things and she will watch vs. last week where I watched her. I am a hands on learner so this will be good for me. I am excited that I am remembering things I haven't had to think about for a long while. I am remembering to logoff vs signoff my laptop or is it signoff vs. logoff....either way I am doing it right....LOL. I am going on a trip to Maine in October for a Manager's Meeting. I know, I know....flying is not my favorite form of travel (unless the pilot will let me handle then plane) but it will be good I am sure. Just the idea of being in the Northeast in the fall.....oh yeah!!!
There are still test cases to be completed. As many of you know, I have "test anxiety". I was even worried I wouldn't pass the "P" test before I started my job.....not because of what was in my system but worrying about failure to perform......if you get my drift.
I prayed for some answers and they came in the form of this opportunity. I feel I did the right thing at the right time for the right reasons for me......and that is all that matters.
There are still test cases to be completed. As many of you know, I have "test anxiety". I was even worried I wouldn't pass the "P" test before I started my job.....not because of what was in my system but worrying about failure to perform......if you get my drift.
I prayed for some answers and they came in the form of this opportunity. I feel I did the right thing at the right time for the right reasons for me......and that is all that matters.
A New Way To Handle Disappointment
I have not been known as an emotional eater. I don't have a food fest when I am extremely happy or sad. What I do when I am sad, hurt or disappointed is want to throw in the towel.
Friday was one of those days. In a previous entry, I mentioned I was going to enter a contest to blog for a local Medical Center. In my heart of hearts, I really thought I would be one of the winning entries. I knew the competition would be tough but really thought my writing would be good enough to make the cut. Well, I found out Friday afternoon that I wasn't selected. In a split second, I was the last kid chosen for the baseball team, the girl who looked foolish at the cheerleading tryouts and the fat friend who gets ignored by the guys when out with her girlfriends at a bar.......all rolled into one. Once I read online that I wasn't one of the winners, I had to take a second and get myself together and try not to cry. I still had a few more hours of work left to do and being the new kid on the block......tears would not have been a good thing. I promised myself that I would allow myself to cry about my loss once I got in the car to go home. It took a lot to get through the rest of the day. Once in the car, I did cry a little. Then I continued my pity party by deciding to give up on it all......this blog, healthy eating, exercise and attempted weight loss.
Yes, I was done. The weight loss has been so slow!! The healthier food cost more!!! Why am I beating myself up at the gym??? If my blog wasn't good enough for the contest maybe no one would care if I stopped it all together. That's it I 'll fix them all......I am quitting it ALL !!!!
Then I got home and .....like Scrooge said to Bob Cratchit " I haven't taken leave of my senses....I have come to them."
No, I will not stop this blog, my exercising, the attempts to eat healthy and my efforts to lose weight. I just needed time to regroup.
I have decided to increase my efforts at all of these once Labor Day is over. Why Labor Day you might ask? I will be in my job 4 weeks and in more of a routine. That will help a lot.
As far as this blog, I hope you readers are getting as much out of it as I am.....
I might be the last person picked for the team but that's OK. I am picking me first....and that is all that matters.
P.S.- On the Medical Center website, I posted a note congratulating the winners. It was the right thing to do. I took the high road even though at times the high road sucks. Who ever invented the high road was a jerk......
Friday was one of those days. In a previous entry, I mentioned I was going to enter a contest to blog for a local Medical Center. In my heart of hearts, I really thought I would be one of the winning entries. I knew the competition would be tough but really thought my writing would be good enough to make the cut. Well, I found out Friday afternoon that I wasn't selected. In a split second, I was the last kid chosen for the baseball team, the girl who looked foolish at the cheerleading tryouts and the fat friend who gets ignored by the guys when out with her girlfriends at a bar.......all rolled into one. Once I read online that I wasn't one of the winners, I had to take a second and get myself together and try not to cry. I still had a few more hours of work left to do and being the new kid on the block......tears would not have been a good thing. I promised myself that I would allow myself to cry about my loss once I got in the car to go home. It took a lot to get through the rest of the day. Once in the car, I did cry a little. Then I continued my pity party by deciding to give up on it all......this blog, healthy eating, exercise and attempted weight loss.
Yes, I was done. The weight loss has been so slow!! The healthier food cost more!!! Why am I beating myself up at the gym??? If my blog wasn't good enough for the contest maybe no one would care if I stopped it all together. That's it I 'll fix them all......I am quitting it ALL !!!!
Then I got home and .....like Scrooge said to Bob Cratchit " I haven't taken leave of my senses....I have come to them."
No, I will not stop this blog, my exercising, the attempts to eat healthy and my efforts to lose weight. I just needed time to regroup.
I have decided to increase my efforts at all of these once Labor Day is over. Why Labor Day you might ask? I will be in my job 4 weeks and in more of a routine. That will help a lot.
As far as this blog, I hope you readers are getting as much out of it as I am.....
I might be the last person picked for the team but that's OK. I am picking me first....and that is all that matters.
P.S.- On the Medical Center website, I posted a note congratulating the winners. It was the right thing to do. I took the high road even though at times the high road sucks. Who ever invented the high road was a jerk......
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Back on the scale....
It has been about 6 weeks since I had gotten on the scale. I decided that I would do it this morning. Once again I was nervous. I weighed myself 4 times, facing north, south, east and west. I know, I know......this is.....not normal. Anyway, I was down some. I have to lose another 5 pounds to get to my next goal. I have decided that after Labor Day, I will have 4 weeks in the new job, the weather will get cooler (hopefully) and I will really kick it into gear.
I can only focus on the 5 pounds.......I cannot look any further than that and that is OK.....for me.
I don't think I will get on the scale again for 4-6 weeks. It really is reducing the stress I was facing each Saturday. I would love to be down the 5 pounds by my next self-imposed weigh-in. If I am great.....if not then I will be by the next time or the next.....I am sure it will happen .....it is just a matter of when....
I can only focus on the 5 pounds.......I cannot look any further than that and that is OK.....for me.
I don't think I will get on the scale again for 4-6 weeks. It really is reducing the stress I was facing each Saturday. I would love to be down the 5 pounds by my next self-imposed weigh-in. If I am great.....if not then I will be by the next time or the next.....I am sure it will happen .....it is just a matter of when....
Trying to wear some new things.....
You all know I did some shopping recently. I still have to get some slacks in navy, brown and grey. On Friday, I work black slacks, a floral print button down shirt with a green tank top underneath. The tank was a camisole style with lace edging. The floral print shirt had the colors blue, black and green. The tank had the matching green. When I put it on, I loved the way it looked.
When I got to work, my boss said "You heard about wearing green on Friday." I said I hadn't. It turns out that one of the company colors is green (the other is purple). A lot of employees wear green on Friday's. So, I was already fitting in.....
What they didn't know is I was enjoying wearing a new top and breaking out of the usual solid tops that I wear. Next week, I may breakout and wear one of the other print tops I purchased recently. We will just have to wait and see....
I will have to keep you all in suspense.....will she or won't she......you will just have to wait until next week to find out.....
When I got to work, my boss said "You heard about wearing green on Friday." I said I hadn't. It turns out that one of the company colors is green (the other is purple). A lot of employees wear green on Friday's. So, I was already fitting in.....
What they didn't know is I was enjoying wearing a new top and breaking out of the usual solid tops that I wear. Next week, I may breakout and wear one of the other print tops I purchased recently. We will just have to wait and see....
I will have to keep you all in suspense.....will she or won't she......you will just have to wait until next week to find out.....
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